(DAY 56 BTW, AND IT’S ALL OVER!)
Okay so what do I say that you probably don’t want to hear! STOP STOP!! Forgive me, I’ve hanging around too many damn stoners who just argue with me and claim that this is all bullshit and “arghhh when i didn’t smoke weed for 6 months i was exactly the same as I when i did it all the time, ok.. SO FUCK OFF SAYING ALL THIS SHIT YEAHHH, I’m FED UP OF IT!! JUST LET ME FUCKING GET HIGH and FORGET THE DAMN WORLD, with it’s FUCKING PROBLEM AND MINE TOO!!” This later lead into a full blown arguement as i further enquired, “hold on, we’ve been smoking NON-stop for the past ten years when did you have this 6 months break exactly?” to which on failing to reply, shouting proceeded. Hey I’m not trying to be a dick, but if you’re gonna say something then fucking don’t make shit up and then go even further by basing conclusions on this made up bullshit. So he then redefining his meaning when he says quit.. to be just smoke less, or “remember that time we couldn’t get hold on any good stuff??” “yes, didn’t we just smoke thai weed instead??” I asked.. MAYWEATHER PART 2, in came the flurry.. ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! whateverr you sayyy mate. It’s not his fault, he genuinely in believes what he’s saying but the sad truth is his memory files are completely corrupted for he’s chosen to remember things this way. Denial is a powerful creature and can really fuck with people.
SO WHAT’S THE DEAL?
Unlike him i’m in a better position to talk about this, as ultimately if you’ve read my blog that’s what this experience has been about. I quit on the 5th March 2012, and it’s been 6 days more than the last time I packed in weed smoking for a while. The simple answer is yes! In every way times 1000 … those who deny it are talking utter bullshit and merely want to extend their drug addiction further in peace while they slowly degrade their brains and rott away. Last time made it to this mark i remember feeling completely free of it’s grasp and completely no longer needing to get high anymore!! i just completely removed the urges and the compulsions to wanna getting high, and I DID!! & I don’t get those Nagging feelings for a spliff anymore!! I’m CLEAN MOTHERFUCKA!! AND YES TIMES A BILLION TRILLION! WHile i’ve been CLEAAN LIKE A BITCH, i’ve been no longer wasting time every night to find somebody to pick up from / with and get high with.
NO LONGER, wasting cash on that shit!! but more importantly, i’ve been able to focus unlike before!! i’m not tied down to any bad habbits taking me away from work, i’m FREE!! to be productive and ultimately the more productive I am, the happier I am!! I spring out of bed EASSSILY in the morning with no T.H.C floating around my system, making me feel sluggish.. and don’t tell me that doesn’t exist, i have over 10 years of experience telling me otherwise! While i’ve been clean, i’ve been eating better no MUNCHING, sleeping better, no bullshit, life has just been better.. or maybe life has just been normal!! i’m so used to this spasticated way of life of doping myself up to the point i couldn’t think and then somehow expecting the next day to be fruit full and 199% productive!!
IS THIS YOU?
- Are you having great ideas, moments of inspiration, GENIUS thoughts, but them not going anywhere?
- Feeling like you’re wasting you life, or not grabbing opportunity that you have?
- Lazy, can’t be arsed to do anything?
- Life becoming really repetitive?
- Initial thoughts coming in as you start to realise that maybe you should cut down?
- You’re broke, and can’t afford this drug habit?
- Getting angry with the close people around you? See yourself acting like dick, can’t do anything about it
- Owe people money, just wanna forget about it & hope they do.
- Just outright depressed, and feel helpless?
- You’ve talked to shitloads of people, and does nothing ever change?
- you dream of a change, adventure?
MY ADVISE
Is simple : Quit Weed
And oh yeah, tell your druggy ass BEST friends, and they are always your bestest friends cos by now you’re completely unable to mix with anybody that doesn’t get high as regular as yo ass does. When they argue with you and tell you.. “NAHH it’s not the weed” “I’m as productive on WEED as when I’m not on it” TELL THOSE STUPID DUMBASS CUNTS FROM ME!! TO:
