Yeap that’s right people I openly confess to you all now, that this whole “AFTER BEING AN ADDICT, IS IT POSSIBLE TO GO BACK TO BEING A CASUAL SMOKER?
” was a big mistake to try it that so soon. To think 50 days was enough is now seeming really a bad idea & stupid, and I say this cos the fucking cravings are back! I feel like I’ve regressed and I am now back to exactly where I began …. “ALRIGHT ALRIGHT WE GET IT!”, don’t worry I’m gonna repeat the last post but I feel that this point has to be stressed a bit further cos it’s bloody important. I wont make this mistake again.
THE IDEA WAS GOOD, HOWEVER THE EXECUTION WAS FLAWED
REGARDLESS of everything the initial idea was a good one i.e. being able to moderate when I smoke! It all seemed to make sense, and fit perfectly into place for when I didn’t smoke for a long time, I enjoyed it sooo much more! So where did I go wrong? As I soon to enter the 2nd non-smoking phase this is best time to reflect what the fuck happened? Ok lets recap 1) I got high after a 50 day break 2) & i just went back to smoking weed regularly again?!? 3) I then got high pretty much the whole of that week, i.e. totally defeating the purpose of everything. The whole reason why I’m so pissed off with myself, cos as stupid as this sounds, i REALLY THOUGHT COULD DO It easier than that!…. anyway we all learn from our mistakes, so fine i’m back to the drawing board, but many questions are left unanswered. I guess.. I’ll be trying this again in the near distant future but this time when I do try it again, i’ll just have to really really have the 2nd day after the session under control. i.e. I’ll make sure that this fuck up doesn’t happen again. For I’m determined it’s possible!!! It’s got to be possible! Sure i have an addictive personality, but then really when you dig beneath the surface that’s just another way of saying undisciplined. Life is full of lots of great and wonderful things, but doing them continuously back to back is boring. I.e this problem ultimately is all mental and IN YO HEAD!! When one believes they are disciplined that person can achieve anything… I guess I’ll talk about this again later on, but for the time being I got cravings that need to be ignored. THAT FUCKING CAT CAN SIMPLY FUCK OFF!
Eating when you are not hungry sounds about right?? When I read this description suddenly I laughed for not even GOD himself could speak words so true. Once upon a time, i was thin.. ok was never thin, but I certainly wasn’t a FAT ASS “ROBERT PAULSON” BITCH TITS MOFUCKA!! Ok i exagerate i aint got TITTIES just yet, but if i did it would be cos of the fucking weed! man i fucking love food as it isssss… now add the illogicalness of having the munchies and that’s some fUcKEdD UP COMBINATION!! Naturally everybody has a different reaction to the munchies, but in my personally experience the urban dictionary has it SPOT ON!!! So it’s like 11pm i’ve had dinner probably not even that long ago…so we pick up start getting high, and an hour later, somebody brings up foods? not even A THOUSAND WHORES OF BABYLON could detract or distract you from that BIG MAC!!! And the fuckas leave that shit open 24 hours a day, so they’ll get you.. you’ll fight it!! and ok you’ll win a few, but the house always wins!!! SEE WORDS OF A FATASS!!! I’m telling you i wouldn’t be surprised if those bastards were secretly underhandedly funding large cannabis drug cartels!!! lol
Again I make the disclaimer that this isn’t the case for all weed smokers, sure i’ve met many a dude or gyal who doesn’t feel like eating at all, they just don’t get the munchies, and fair play to them! <BASTARDS!!!> lol if that’s the case for you, i’m totally envious!!.cos personally the munchies have completely ruined me!! i was in good shape before i started caining 24/7, I used to work out, play football, squash!! no joke I was an active MOTHERFUCKA!!! but that green shit somehow manages to fuck it up… now i know it may seem like i’m blaming FAR to much on the weed, but if i got it into the STANDS of a court of LAW!! i’m pretty sure i’d be able to FUCK HIM UP!! on the grounds of .. YOU TOOK AWAY MY MOTIVATION AND SHAT ON IT – MOTHERFUCKA!!! lol hahah ok you may have started to realise that this is a sensitive topic for me!! 1-0 to the ganja, and that’s kinda one of the major reasons why i’ve quit smoking weed, cos it’s destroying my health!! 
NOw i’m not gay, but it’s like getting a 10” DILDO and fucking me up the ASS!!! i’m losing this one man!! enough ground to want to quit smoking weed yet?