IT’S DAY 5 – BUT WHO’S COUNTING RIGHT?
One of my really good friends came over to chill a few hours ago and we’d initially said that we were gonna do something productive. We specifically set out that smoking weed wasn’t on the menu as he’s also was on the path of trying to give up the ganga however when he arrived he was high! Now this shouldn’t have been a problem for me but it really was!! He didn’t make any of a deal that he was high – if anything it was hardly noticeable but I really found myself cracking!! The pressure in my head to go pickup some weed was ridiculous and I guess because I’ve hung out with him and got high SOOO MANY times my natural activity of choice was to get high! however I battled it out and managed not to crack that evening! While also both managed to write a hilarious song about FAT ASS BITCHES
, which by reading you’d think that we were high, well he was! Anyway I really want to be able to change this but I guess it will happen over time the more we hang out and don’t resort to smoking dope. When we were younger we never needed that shit to have a good time but slowly that shit integrated itself into our lives where we’d hang out purely to get high! DOn’t get me wrong, hanging out and getting high is a fucking wonderful thing but questions gotta be asked it was almost the ONLY thing you can do. To the point where people are massively less motivated to do any other activity – it’s all programming!! I wrote a blog post titled WEED SMOKERS ARE LIKE FREE MASONS, where I talked about how weed smokers only want to hang amongst themselves for only they, they ALONE understand what the deal is. & I also briefly mentioned in the post below “PEOPLE AROUND ME” that smoking weed meant = access granted. I’m starting to get a fuller picture of what needs to be done! more to come on this…
REPLACING ONE EVIL FOR ANOTHER
YES!!! I KNOW I KNOW!! it’s bad and really shouldn’t be done, but I’ve resorted to using cigarettes to control my withdrawal symptoms when they come! I have some of the most disgusting Bangladeshi branded cigarettes in my possession, and you gotta trust me on this THEY ARE DIGUSTING!! AS in when i smoke one of these cigarettes they completely put me of the idea of getting high! More specifically when I smoke one of these POWERFUL fags they actually remind me of that feeling I get when I’ve been smoking weed and am by myself. i.e. the regret of smoking weed! I GOTTA SAY THIS ACTUALLY WORKS!! & If I gotta be truthful about last time (during the 50 days) I actually did use this method of weening myself using rollies and cigarettes, and it did work!! however the disclaimer is, i’m not a cigarette smoker, infact I would go as far as saying I really can’t stand cigarettes at all, they make me feel slightly ill, so this method is perfect for me but I wouldn’t recommend this to a proper weed/cigarette smoker because it probably just wouldn’t work!