As this is experiment – hence the next section I’ve laid out like a science experiment!
INTRODUCTION
I aimed to discover if it’s possible to enjoy the calming relaxing properties & benefits of smoking weed on a seldom to rare occasionally process. I will try & explore this topic fairly and with objectivity. If I was to reflect what’s it’s like to smoke after 50 days then i’d have to have a proper session of getting high!! So yesterday this experiment began…
WHY DID YOU DO IT?
As I’ve written and explained before, going on a long hiatus of not smoking to then at some point to completely revert back to inverse i.e. smoking a lot is what i want to avoid like the plague!! it’s happened to me, so many times, and this time i’m determined once and for all to end this cycle. I learnt that after 50 days it’s enough time to actually forget what weed is like so this was a perfect time to time to execute this operation.
After being heavily chastised the previous night for ending my long spell for just a couple of toaks on a crap spliff, it was clear that i’d learnt nothing!! I.e. I didn’t actually get high that night & I couldn’t extend to day 51, i,e. writing it off… resulting in DEAD ENd? It was clear what I had to do…. So in an orderly organised manner I planned ….
METHOD – WHAT HAPPENED.
I went round to a friends house to have a session. We had a couple of spliffs to start off with, which really had me rocking for I hadn’t smoked in a while my tolerance had become noticeably lowered. Regardless we smoked more and more, and piled on through the night getting higher and higher!
WHAT WAS IT LIKE
PROs
OK, so what was it like? Well to be honest, it’s weird being stoned… It felt kinda homely, like i’d really missed this place, the peacefullness and the serenity of it all. It was really good, I had a great time!!! I really did….. I got stoned off my face, and I was really HAPPY just like the old times!! My mind was free to roam and be silly or just zone out it was great, I had a great time chilling with the guys!! I totally had forgotten what it was like being high again, and it was nice, really nice, like I said before homely & soft. The evening went so well, I had a GREAT TIME!! I missed this – I really did!!
When I got home I then started applying my mind to different problems that I’d been struggling with during the month. WTF!!! I was like that guy from LIMITLESS!! GOD SOLEMN TRUTH: I was coming with solutions left, right & centre!! WOW!! I was coming up so much stuff, it was amazing?? I had initially said that I could do this while sober. I claimed that I’d given credit to cannabis for this ability that I could naturally perform. This however could be true, but Weed did do something else to me!! The massive effect it has on my brain, i.e YOUR STONED!!! this just simply cannot be disregarded as denial!! using common sense alone it must be truth that in that state your brain is bound to come up with different things than it normally would do when sober. Hence I conclude that smoking weed doesn’t enhance my ability to troubleshoot, rather it puts me in a different viewpoint and from there I see different solutions… More accurately I feel…
CONs
MUNCHES – Yeap that’s right, i eat shitloads of food with no remorse, and it didn’t make me feel full either.. it had nothing to do with feeling full!!! Food tastes good, EAT FOOD!! that’s it… vERY fucked!!! I just had no discipline on the stuff!! I’m on the atkin diet at the moment, and I can say firmly that it’s working!! i.e. My diet has changed, and I’m eating less carby foods and more protein & salads!! I’ve avoided sugar to the most of it, however…. yesterday I had chocolate, with absolute disregard of this diet!! it was terrible!! I slept at 4-5am in the morning and woke up at 1pm??? Bad memories of a weed hangovers happening all over again!! That’s the walk of depression….. I don’t want to go back there again..
WHAT DID YOU LEARN
I did really enjoy getting high with the boys, it was soo much fun!! Up until smoking the spliff,I was actually looking forward to it, and when we did, it was great!! i had a great evening!! lots of fun! I really enjoyed being high, and I can say this firmly now, I WAS “HIGH”! damn right!! HIGH AS fuck! Now… on the drive home, I couldn’t help but think this feels really nice, peaceful and calming, but what happened before?? By smoking all the time, I concluded that i’d trapped myself in that world of peacefulness, and calm where no work can actually be done, just thought about. That’s why as great as that place i was in yesterday was… being trapped there was a nightmare that i didn’t want to go back to.
The weed hangover I had this morning, was terrible and I had totally messed up my body clock rhythm, i mean waking up at 1pm??? WHAT THE HELL!! The munchies sucked real bad, and reminds me why i’m at this stupid weight.. It’s cos of the weed, nothing else. Weed is great in moderation, the benefits of it can’t be found anywhere else… however the side effects of smoking are really dangerous!!!
CONCLUSION
I think I learnt a lot from yesterday, as i’d so many questions I wanted answers for….. throughout the evening I paid great attention to “how I felt” “how things were different”. I really want to continue the good work i’m doing now… I’ve had my fun, it’s time to store those good memories and smoke another place, and another time in the future…. but only when the time’s is right…