As I wrote in my previous article “WHEN YOU SAY YOU’RE FEELING “HIGH” – WHAT DOES THAT ACTUALLY MEAN?”
that’s what I was talking about. I wrote about missing that feeling of happiness when i got high! It’s simple and as I concluded something in excess is not fun anymore, and that’s that. I wanted to experience what it felt like being high again, and what best at a party where there’s loads of people booze the rest!! Sadly I had a few tooks of a joint which is enough to qualify that my 50 day of abstinence was over, however at the end of the evening I was left feeling short changed for I had to bear the disappointment of some humming & tutting away for what a couple of drags of a joint?? that I didn’t even feel cos there wasn’t much there.. lose the title, get unfairly given grief for a anticlimax that didn’t deserve it. NO! I started this journey to better understand what’s going on, i.e. not to quit a drug that I feel is the only substance out there that can really make me relax.note as much as yoga and meditation is viable options, I explored these much earlier in my life pre-smoking cannabis and found them to be nice but didn’t PHYSICALLY SLOW DOWN MY HEART RATE! I started blog & journey to better reveal and understand the process and then better fease a solution!! A solution where everybody wins, ultimately being the outcome where I smoke much much less and really cherish and enjoy the occasions when i do, and for the 90% Be FIT and HEALTHY!! sounds like a winner to me..
THOSE THAT TRY TO “HELP” by shouting at you.
I got shit for no reason, I can’t blame them for how they react at all, however… at fault or not, they’re having a negative effect on me, and unfortunately forcing me to lie….cos they’re getting involved, bossing their weight, emotionally guilt tripping me ultimately in an area they have no knowledge about. This is causing problems for me, for their help despite them not realising this is antiproductive!!
I wish to be open about this whole process!!! man I setup a blog, where my thoughts about this topic are here for the world to see, I wish not to lie but to understand and win!! So for the betterment and peacefulness of everybody I’ve decided to no longer speak about this. If people ask me i’ll volunteer the information, i’ll answer the question to my best ability but if people are really interested in the proper answer it’s written here in TECHNO COLOUR explained with diagrams!!! I don’t want to upset or annoy anybody to achieve this but I need do to succeed…