How I Quit WEED

So you went to the Dentist, they asked the standard question, i.e “How many cigarettes do you smoke? 1-4, 10+, 20+ etc etc” You tick the minimum box thinking you’re being pretty honest, cos you tell most people you don’t smoke which you believe to be true. Dentist looks into your mouth at your teeth and gums, and thinks “1-4 huh? yeh sure buddy, your mouth looks like the Human Centipede version of stitching a car exhaust to your face!”  If only there’d been a weed tick box on the form, things would have been so much more honest right.

It’s that time again….

So you bought a large stash of Amnesia Haze, and decided I’m gonna out on a BANG! Of course as you do at the beginning of the bag you were making big SNOOP DAWG joints, perhaps coughing your nuts off, but HAPPY! Alas that only seems like a memory now and well you’re forced with something very scary and real approaching you, i.e. this bag is done and once lay JUICY BUDS now is a few crumbs …. I really gotta do this.  Getting high is great relaxing feeling, it doesn’t give you massive hangovers the next day, it’s a fairly pleasant experience so why the big WHO-HA about me having to give this shit a break for a while, it’s not hurting me OR at least you don’t think so! Ultimately that’s the case, we never realise who is good or bad for us generally in life as sometimes we can be in denial about things, and only years and years later do you actually start to see the truth for the truth.

Now everybody that reads this blog regularly will know that I FUCKING LOVE CANNABIS, I do and that’s what really qualifies me to say I FEEL YOU, I do but along with that comes many a logic and reasoning that too much of a good thing can’t be a good thing. This statement is completely dependant on what you want in life, i.e. if you have a nice arrangement where you’re comfortable doing what you’re doing and are regularly smoking up and it’s neither disturbing your life or improving it then that’s cool.  However if you have dreams to achieve, with many a long winding road yet to walk plagued with end of level boss battles, then I’d seriously ask you to reconsider your daily routines.  Weed is an amazing sedative relaxing drug, but feeling sedated and being a go getting don’t work together that well, if anything they make each others life difficult.  Now you’ll quote me some of the biggest HIP HOP stars and successful people and tell me that they’re quoted on an interview saying how much they smoke a day, yeah yeah blah blah blah blah. If this is where you are, then I’d urge you do some more research cos you’re really fucking yourself by believing this fluff talk then that’s dangerous.  For in the end we should all do what we do knowing the dangers, and if you choose to waver them then I fair play to yourself, and I have nothing more to say to you.

METHODS OF QUITTING/HAVING A BREAK

This naturally varies from personality to personality as people react differently to the physiological effects of being without “my precious” for a while.  In the end it comes to taking one of the following approaches to this problem.

WEANING yourself off SLOWLY

In this method a person slowly reduces the amount they smoke, leading up to the date that they’ve chosen to quit.  This in theory should reduce the withdrawal symptoms you suffer from once you’ve start your no smoking pact.

Going COLD TURKEY

Now lets really talk turkey here, if you like going out with a bang this is your ticket! This method generally seems the more popular approach to tackling the issue, as even if you wean yourself down to needing just a few crumbs of weed to sleep/survive, or any other excuse you come up with, ultimately you’ll still be yearning something, just fuck it! Yes you’ll suffer from withdrawal symptoms for the first week but you’ll get over it.

Conclusion

We’ll talk of other ways to help you sustain, you period of non smoking as we go on, but for main thing that needs to be realised is the difference in not being stoned all the time to being completely clean.  For you like myself have probably been smoking for a long ass time and just have forgotten what it feels like to be completely clean of all substances – it’s a new drug in itself, hard to really explain but we’ll also hopefully go into this on a later article.  Now I find myself having to always disclaimer this, but I love weed, it’s a just great feeling, great everything, but smoking takes you somewhere, now that something isn’t a bad place AT ALL, the only issue I have is, when statistically you’ve been spending 95% of your time there, and when you try to mix shit up you can’t you’re trapped.  Somehow without realising you got locked up there, and you don’t have a choice anymore, that’s where I come in.  When choice is removed, what was once a fun thing, becomes dangerous as look at it, like have your steering wheel locked in the same direction as you go 87 mph in a direction, i.e you know you’re gonna crash just when? – take control people!

So you’re walking home from work.. “what’s that!!!” you suddenly catch a whiff of that gaunja smell looming in the air! Your guard is up, “SOMEBODY IS SMOKING ILLEGAL DRUGS!” RED ALERT – Shields to maximum, purse/wallet/phone check!! You start to look around for the CRIMINAL, for he’s probably been in and out of prison numerous times committing endless crimes from manslaughter to rape and undoubtedly is a phedophile! You mentally toughen up, “if that ganja smoking bastard tries to steal from me, i’ll fuck him up!!!” and start remembering some of those kung fu moves your friend showed you!

OR if you’re like me, you smell that creamy weed aroma and think “DAMN, that’s SOME GOOD SHIIIIIIIIIII!!!” An example which leads us onto what we’re going to be exploring in this article as to how cannabis has ascertained such a bad reputation despite there being so much illegitimacy in the claims for it’s prohibition.

Politics – 9 times out of 10 the dirty variety.

Hemp (Cannabis plant) has been used since the 1600 as one of the first woven fabrics i.e. roping, cloth work, mats, chairs, brushes and pretty much everything.   It had been used as a medicine for many thousands of years all over the world being used in China and the Middle East for treating conditions like constipation, malaria and rheumatism.  Cannabis was sold quite freely in shops and it is commonly known Queen Victoria was administer cannabis regularly to ease her period pain.  It was actually the invention of needle syringes approximately near the end of the 19th century that marked an end of the widespread medicinal use.  To which the early 20th the plant started making headlines about it’s recreational usages.  Thus the roots as to why it’s become so villainised in our modern society follow the path as to why it was made illegal.  N.B The illegality of cannabis is still very unclear with lots of conspiracy elements involved some deserving more credit than others with the addition of all the recent scientific studies and reports and older ones i.e.

The 1968 Wootton Report, a Home Office investigation into the effects of cannabis concluded: “There is no evidence that this activity is causing violent crime or aggression, anti-social behaviour, or is producing in otherwise normal people conditions of dependence or psychosis requiring medical treatment.”

However 45 years later after the original Wootton Report and many others have been published it is still illegal to grow, produce, possess or supply Cannabis in the UK so the real question has to be ask is why do our governments keep cannabis prohibited on what basis.

Government Conspiracy?

“CONSPIRACY!!!” you all scream out and immediately many dismiss you as “one of those ay!”, but lets be honest the government’s bottom line explanation on cannabis prohibition makes no sense either so perhaps giving a lot more credit to the theories as to the real reason our government choose to ban it.  Let start by examining the infamous American propaganda video “Reefer Madness” (originally titled “Tell Your Children” or sometimes found as “The Burning Question”, “Dope Addict”, “Doped Youth” and “Love Madness”) released in the 1936 promoting cannabis as the first step to all psychotic illnesses and generally suggesting completely over the top scenerios.  Thankfully this video is generally now seen in it’s more comedic form, but the question as to why the US and every government tried as hard to wash the mind of their public is still unanswered.  So what are the possible motives?

Racism?

MEXICANS

During the revolution in 1910 many Mexicans crossed over the boarder travelling to numerous places within American with many debarking in California.   Many had brought this south american sounding plant “marijuana” with them and soon enough this difference, as a group of people, was noted and thus within the same year California was the first state to outlaw the “preparations of hemp, or loco weed.”.  This was soon followed by some of the other states including Wyoming in 1915, Texas in 1919, Iowa, Nevada, Oregon, Washington, Arkansas all in 1923 finally with Nebraska & Montana in 1927. The general consensus was these laws were designed to target the Mexican people living within America. Many public sources quote a senator in Texas, telling the floor of the Senate that “All Mexicans are crazy and this stuff [cannabis] is what makes them crazy”.

LATINOS & BLACKS

Now in the early 1930’s this marijuana plant was becoming an epidemic as it was spreading across America mainly through Latin Americans and black jazz musicians.  During this time jazz and marijuana had become indivisible to the jazz scene as it travelled hand in hand crossing from New Orleans to Chicago and then finally Harlem with many of  big black artists of that time like Louis Armstrong,Cab Calloway, Fats Waller’s making mention to the plant in songs like “Muggles”,”That Funny Reefer Man” and “Viper’s Drag”.  Similar patterns where happening around the globe with recreational / musical use of cannabis became every popular growing at it’s heights during the 40/50’s among migrants from the Caribbean arriving in the UK, with the first ever drugs bust taking place at the Jazz Club Number 11 Club in Soho.

Political Leverage

Another man we owe greatly for the illegalisation of cannabis is Harry J. Anslinger, whom in 1930 was appointed head of the newly formed U.S. Treasury Department’s Federal Bureau of Narcotics.  The trouble with this new department was that there just wasn’t enough cases of cocaine or forms opiates to bust, so they turned their focus to marijuana and began trying to make it illegal at the federal level.  He drew national attention to marijuana by accrediting it to racial and very violent cases and promoted his Gore Files, which was “Reefer-madness” style accounts of violent crimes being commited by blacks on this drug. A few other quotes from his Gore Files:

“There are 100,000 total marijuana smokers in the US, and most are Negroes, Hispanics, Filipinos, and entertainers. Their Satanic music, jazz, and swing, result from marijuana use. This marijuana causes white women to seek sexual relations with Negroes, entertainers, and any others.”,     “…the primary reason to outlaw marijuana is its effect on the degenerate races.”, “Marijuana is an addictive drug which produces in its users insanity, criminality, and death.”,      “Reefer makes darkies think they’re as good as white men.”,      “Marihuana leads to pacifism and communist brainwashing”,      “You smoke a joint and you’re likely to kill your brother.”,      “Marijuana is the most violence-causing drug in the history of mankind.” 

Money

Now back in the 1930’s along with cloth and woven hemp was also originally one of the competitors to nowadays timber based paper.  Our modern day Rupert Murdoc equivalent of the generation was a man named William Randolf Hearst who owned of a massive chain of newspapers.  William Hearst had invested a lot in the timber industry for the production of his newspapers and with the oncoming threat of hemp paper taking over it was in his great interest to favour Harry J. Anslinger campaign on marijuana.

Hearst had numerous reasons to help. Firstly right off the bat he was widely reported to hate Mexicans. 2) He had heavily invested in the timber industry to show his support to his newspaper chain which he didn’t want to see the development of hemp paper in competition. 3) He had lost 800,000 acres of timberland to Pancho Villa, so this further completed his resolve to further hate Mexicans. 4) He was selling many newspapers with headlines about the devils marijuana causes violence, while not only misinforming the general public but getting extremely rich in the process.

Generally we see that money has been a good agenda behind many a suspected conspiracy and while cannabis has many medical properties and can really be grown almost in any weather and soil conditions i.e. many people can grow the plant fairly effortlessly. This fact alone potentially  points to pharmaceutical companies losing billions every year.  These pharmaceutical companies are the same ones that fund the campaigns to get parties into power and the parties are threatened that if they legalise Cannabis then the company will no longer fund them.

Fear Mongering

For the United Kingdom during it was in 1928 cannabis was made illegal for all purposes i.e medicinal / recreational. After an international drugs conference which took place in Geneva, Switzerland where an Egyptian delegate managed to persuade all the attendee countries that cannabis was a danger to society comparing it directly to studies and effects of opium usage.  Immediately after the conference laws banning cannabis were implemented.  Using this process of false fear  mongering, many countries also followed in suit resulting in the the majority of the world implentments similar variations of cannabis laws, based on this research as the unknown risk looming upon society is why many felt prohibition was the safest measure to take.

Conclusion

Be it government conspiracy or politics, racism, greed or fear mongering, the fact remains that consuming cannabis is still completely illegal in most countries with it’s roots stemming from why most likely due some of the above.  This article intends to only scratch the surface of the real story of why cannabis is shunned in modern society. If you are interested in this topic and would like to know more about the history of marijuana check out some of the links below.

• The History of the Non-Medical Use of Drugs in the United States by Charles Whitebread, Professor of Law, USC Law School. A Speech to the California Judges Association 1995 annual conference.

• THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT AND THE TREE OF KNOWLEDGE: AN INQUIRY INTO THE LEGAL HISTORY OF AMERICAN MARIJUANA PROHIBITION by
Richard J. Bonnie & Charles H. Whitebread, II. VIRGINIA LAW REVIEW. VOLUME 56 OCTOBER 1970 NUMBER 6

• The Consumers Union Report  – Licit and Illicit Drugs
by Edward M. Brecher and the Editors of Consumer Reports Magazine

• The History of the Marihuana Tax Act of 1937
By David F. Musto, M.D., New Haven, Conn.
Originally published in Arch. Gen. Psychiat. Volume 26, February, 1972

• The Report of the National Commission on Marihuana and Drug Abuse
I. Control of Marihuana, Alcohol and Tobacco.
History of Marihuana Legislation

• The Marihuana Tax Act of 1937.
The history of how the Marihuana Tax Act came to be the law of the land.

• Marijuana – The First Twelve Thousand Years by Ernest L. Abel, 1980

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/programmes/panorama/1632726.stm

Why is Marijuana Illegal?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk_politics/963653.stm

Many people wonder and regularly ask me, why I continually write articles to a site about “how i quit weed” when most of time I’m still smoking weed and getting high.  First glance it may seem a confusing message, but the fact is the more of an addictive I am the more it qualifies to talk about this subject.  One the most impelling reasons I continue to keep writing is because while being a weed junkie and telling my story, I try to be as honest to myself and to you guys as much as I can and many people have reached out to me and told me how they relate to what I’m talking about.  Along with the those emails, I also get people just shouting out raw abuse at me, which I don’t mind either I try and encourage people to comment more and share their thoughts publicly and of course anonymously however I understand this subject is a personal and you’re welcome to be as private as you like.  What I tell the people who rain down with abuse is, if what I talk about makes sense cool if not that’s also fine because we’re all different and act, relate, talk and think completely uniquely to one another and hey if you really feel getting high of your face makes you that you’re at 200% efficiency then you’re entitled to that opinion.

Fully Exposed!

The truth is, 2013 got pretty bad for me, I dunno why that was the case as it was I found myself picking up 2 grams for £20 smoking pretty heavily throughout the night, then round about 6am I’d really be having the munchies to which I’d drive about 5 miles to the local McDonalds Drive through and order about £10 worth of food just for myself.   I would love it, and hate myself as I’d struggled to move while I was trying to sleep, which was not daytime and while I smoked my “bedtime spliff” out of my window I’d see loads of people walking to the train station on their way work.  As a freelancer, most of my work would be online and I could do stuff in my own time, and that was the reasoning that got me through most mornings.

“….Craig David 7 days, cmon..”

So with almost nothing to do with Craig David, however a lot with 7 days, so much has changed! So after many many “that’s it guys I’m gonna smoke like a b**ch and quit in a blaze of glory” <add link>  to be phoning up my dealer the next day asking if he’s around.  I think things have got so bad in the last couple of months my resolve was more powerful than it had ever been and without really overthinking it or making a huge deal of it, on Tuesday night I choose to not smoke a joint, though my physiological cravings were going nuts, I kept cool and just smoked a rollie, to which those unaware is just rolling tobacco that you stick a little filter tip on the end and roll it up and smoke it. It’s cheaper than buying cigarettes but that’s not why I resort to them for price, it’s the fact a cigarette has so much tobacco in the damn thing, more than I wanna smoke.  The benefit of using rolling tobacco is that you can really moderate and control the amount of tobacco you’re smoking. So came Wednesday night, and one of my best friends called me up asking me if I was getting any from my guy, I told hesitated and during the phone call I completely caved arranged a session with him later on that night.  However my conscientious got the better of me, and after hanging up I texted my friend back making an excuse that he wasn’t around that evening.  Now that I think about it that really was the turning point where things go wrong and I fall back into my usual habit of addiction, however not this time.  Admittedly the first couple of nights there are physical issues like sleep deprivation or anxiety problems that can crop up while being without however I just powered through that.

An Early Spliff Test

I say out of nowhere, but realistically all my friends smoke weed so this shouldn’t have surprised me, I got a whiff of weed as he was rolling up a big fat joint, we went outside and I didn’t smoke any of it, and I was completely fine with that.  This than happened more a few more times during the evening where everybody went out to smoke their joints, while I smoked my rollies and by the evening time it wasn’t even an issue, as I’d got used to this setup.  On reflection I’m feeling quite liberated and powerful that I was able to exert an element of discipline.

How Do I Feel?

I wrote about this (sadly) along time ago, when I managed to quit for the first time, which was the birth of this blog in fact.  I feel great, I get up from bed so much easier p.s I fixed my body clock now, to waking up at 7am and sleeping 11pm like work hours. I see the sunrise and see lots of daylight, and even if I spend hours messing around it’s still only midday, which is great feeling that I can crack on with work, head down the bank for a walk/run the world is open and still my oyster.  I know that they’ll be trace T.C.H attached onto my fat cells for another month most likely, but not enough to make a difference on how I’m feeling, which is great by the way, cos the fact that I’ve been able to make a change feels so empowering, this is who I always wanna feel.  Furthermore I bet the next time I get high, as we all know when you haven’t smoked for a bit, it’s fricking AWESOME!!!

Don’t Overthink it Just Do It

Not to pawn of Nike cliche phrase here, but I think that’s what I was doing i.e overthinking everything.  I really made a massive song and dance in my head about the day of stopping, and really made too much of it.  I’m all for preparation and trying to be steps ahead of the game, but sometimes the easiest thing to do is really just to throw yourself off the cliff  and que sera sera (A spanish phrase. Translation: What will be, will be.)

Your relationship is falling apart, your finances are completely out of control with 2 to 3 guys knocking on your door daily cos you owe some mafia guy some money, you’ve put on 20 pounds, and your mobile phone just got cut off cos you didn’t pay the bill.

“…man, my life is shit cos I smoke too much WEED…”

I can be really nice about this or save you the time and just be honest.  Ok I’m sorry to have to tell you this, but your life is shit because you’re shit, and you smoke weed to try forget about how shit your life is.  We’ve all been there and hearing/reading this isn’t really much of a revelation cos you probably knew that was true anyway.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve many times on HowquitIweed.com talked about how smoking TOO much Ganj can fuck you up, but combined with OVER usage, where you’re practically using it to forget all your woes and problems is where alarms should be going off.

Weed lets you dream with ease, but not accomplish so.

…while on weed I philosophise and analyse life! It’s power of introversion actually helps you create that bubble on concentration.  However be warned not to stay in that bubble all year long…

A saying which has been passed down the generations which I thoroughly agree with.  What it’s saying is while being high, in that state of mind where you’re alone thinking about your life you can find the answers to your problems and really dream about what the future could be like and in that future your life is fantastic, you’ve got lots of money, lots of success with the opposite sex, a great car , house and everything you can see you can possibly want.  However while being high you’re only just gonna see those things in your head like in a dream state.  Now getting high the next day is only gonna keep you seeing that dream and more or less if you keep doing this, it’ll just stay a dream.  In reality, once you’re back to reality i.e sober that’s really when you should be trying to push down the boundaries that exist between you and that dream.  It’s the time when you work hard, and you get things done that you can look back on at the end of the day / week etc. and be proud of the hard work you put in.

I work great when I’m high…..

This topic usually gets people heated, very defensive about their lifestyles but there is no fixed rule of thumb as there are so many people in this world, everybody being different, I’ve no doubt this is true for many, and I have friends who smoke weed everyday and get things done. However in general for most people this SADLY isn’t true.  I get people emailing me all the time saying that they “wanna be doing shit while high” cos they see other people doing it.  The story always goes the same way i.e. by trying this they fuck up.  I believed this shit once when doing my undergrad dissertation, I wrote so much of that high of my face. Sure I didn’t fail, but had I not been stupid I would have done soo much better in the end.  Ok I’ll be really straight about this, how do we even know those people who claim to be “ONTOP OF THEIR daily SHIT, while super HIGH!!” ain’t talking bullshit! It could easily just be their self defence mechanism just kicking in, who knows??? Saying that, in the article does weed effect you after you been smoking we looked at a very similar topic and took a more scientific approach.

Don’t hate on WEED – I’m a creative, weed always helps me!!

Sure getting high always can make you creative, and you’ll get ideas upon idea however smoking weed might not STOP YOU, completely but if you’re really damn HIGH it certainly isn’t gonna make what you’re doing much easier.  I’ve been making music for years, and yeah getting high does help in some ways, but when it comes to actually moving and doing shit, I can’t be fucked. I wanna sit around, and chill.  Now I can force myself to get up and do shit, but by forcing myself I’m clearly admitting that I’m going against my natural drive to not want to do something, i.e. getting stuff done is going to be impeded.  Lets be honest, smoking a bit here and there isn’t harmful and really can relax you to where you can pull out all sorts of creativity.. question, is it really the weed that’s doing all the creating? probably not, but if the process helps, don’t hate. Many rappers, and big music producer are anti smoking while working as it doesn’t help them as it leaves them feeling dead..”SMOKEEE SOME SATIVA!!” you say, despite agreeing with you that INDICAs and SATIVA should be looked at individually it’s not practical to really break down weed into 2 further categories as that doesn’t help us get our answer but more throwout more questions. Also be honest it’s not practical as Weed isn’t legal, and for that reason the chances of your dealer being able to give you an Amsterdam style weed menu is pretty unrealistic and generally doesn’t describe the general situation.

 Conclusion

It happens to a lot of people that they smoke way too much weed, and they start getting sloppy i.e. going into work late, not caring how they look, letting themselves go as they go nuts on the munchies.  I’m generalising here, but the truth is people loss job, girlfriends, and colleagues all the time cos of drugs and how they change people.  Now it might seem like the obvious advice to tell somebody, “yo quit smoking so much, you’re life will get better.” This may be true and quite possibly may work, but sometimes it don’t cos there are many underlying reasons why people smoke weed in the first place.  Blaming weed for all your troubles, isn’t actually that productive cos you’re potentially letting yourself miss the true, real reasons why you keep going back to smoking.  As crazy as it may seem it’s much more healthier to blame life and circumstances in your life rather than blame the drug outright, cos that isn’t gonna get you anywhere, and closer to solving your problems.  With all that said, of course nobody is giving Weed a get out of jail card, by any means but the moral here is to look deeper than the joint you got rolled up and about to smoke.

So what if you are that person?

You read carefully thinking i hope he doesn’t describe me, and if he does i’ll either have this very “coincidental” desire to send somebody a text/go to the toilet/feel hungry and make a snack/do fucking anything but read on!! However even after all that you’ve still made it here, so who’s “that GUY“, (better not be me you’re gonna have a dig at motherfucka!!!) fuck this blog, you piece of shit motherfucka!!! RELAXXX, you know what I’m saying, and to be honest you already agree and kinda already know what you’ve got to do.. Yes, if you are that person who (be honest now) has let you dependacy to the drug completely out of control and you’ll know cos you wont be able to function when not on the shit, or you’re the type who puts a tiny bit of weed even in rolling cigarettes.  If you’re still not sure if this is you or not check . Look i’m not hating on you, listen i’ve been like you before once upon a time and I understand that people become addicted to different substanes for many difference reasons. Now i’m guessing if you’re even reading this site, that because you wanna do something about it.

 For the Overaddicted

Ok so you’ve dug yourself an ever expanding hole, and you know it’s bad to the point it almost seems like a rightoff trying to do something about it! You’re WRONG! – Doesn’t matter how bad your problem is, if you got there you can get back meaning that perfect situation of balanced you’ve always imagined, well it’s completely achievable. Realisig that own brains are just like computers, i.e they are programmable and can be programed to carry out good behaviour if you so choice.

Email from a reader….

So this email I read it, and found it inspiring and asked the user if I could publish it.

My name is DAVID (Alias) I would say I’m a naturally driven, motivated person, however when I smoke weed regularly for a while this completely would no longer be the case.  If anything my life then revolved around when the next time I was going to get high, which is a sad thought.  I started smoking weed at 18 but properly at 22, and never really stopped getting high.  I’ve had periods in my life when I haven’t been at home and thus haven’t been able to get hold of stuff as regularly but otherwise I’d been getting high everyday pretty much as early as I can remember.  Having a bunch of friends whom weed is the centre of their lives also doesn’t help at all.  We all know this drug is fine in moderation however when did we all lose that sense and let the urge of “I wanna get high again tonight!!” take over to where it’s completely responsible for alot of the bad things that have happened in all ours lives.  While also being a good thing in certain ways, if I had a choice to go back in time and change whether I was a weed smoker, I probably would.  In my 30s I’ve kinda let myself go, got lazy, I sleep all day and wake up in the late afternoon, I didn’t have a job, haven’t trained in anything for a while, and generally had been a waste of space for my parents whom I’ve had to move back in with.

THey knew I’d had a problem as they see me with red eyes reeking of cannabis all the time, with my mother funding my drug habit for a long time.  She’d alway give me money, and say “please don’t spend it on drugs!!!” NO NO NO!!! i assure her.. that’s the thing when you’re an addict you’re morality adjusts and warps itself to suit any state of mind.  IT’s wrong, I’ve wasted thousands & thousands of pounds on this drug, my parents money!!! and wasted my life on it too… I had so much potential, to achieve so many things, but instead I choice to waste money, smoke up, and DREAM about what could be.  I’d become a dreamer while others around me, whom aren’t particularly brighter than myself hold on good jobs, and have progressed in life buying cars&houses, while I’m left till borrowing my folks bucket which don’t even start properly when they’re not using it. Do i blame my addiction for the way my life has turned out. yes and no.  I’ve done things in my life, also while being high, but I feel by being high it’s stopped from really achieving the top.  It’s just too difficult to actually do stuff on it..

MY lifestyle had become ridiculous, and perhaps I shouldn’t blame the herb for everything perhaps excepting blame for myself, but the drug hasn’t helped me!! As for how others do it, I dunno??? I started reading your blog as it was different from all things i read you really wanted to explore this subject, and you’ve made me think about stuff. I’ve laughed at you exposing smokers with annoying habits, that shit is soo true! Overall though I wanted to write to you cos I appreciate the effort you make to put into this online and let others join in with your journey and have really enjoyed reading your stuff. ! I desired a change in my life, i was fed up of how things have been.. Having been poor, addicted and dependant.  The drug had increased my relationships with people, but at the same time has also destroyed other relationships.  One of my friends owes his life to the drug and I get that, cos he doesn’t appreciate what else he has, or maybe he’s right?? Maybe he is what he is, because of the ganj, maybe the person I am is also a combination of smoking for all these years… but I was yearning for more…Has the world seen my true, power!!

Anyway,  I’m a new man these days….. I wanna tell you that you’re suspicions are correct man! It’s been a while since I’ve smoked some draw, and I won’t lie I do miss being HIGH, but since I quit I’ve moved out into my own apartment cos I’ve got money now!!! I work a day job like everyone else, but I always had these ideas of selling t-shirts and my designs online.  Being a stoner, i’d always think about setting this shit up one day, and I kept putting that day off, but it was totally different when I cleared up my head as I doing things didn’t seem as an uphill climb anymore.  Weed does give you a heavy head, and fucks with your motivation in life.  I’ll admit some of shit i came up with when I was high but I the majority of my designs have been when I haven’t been and I’m not sure about the argument that it makes you more creative – I think you are as creative as you are and no “LIMITLESS” style pill can get you there.

To all my broke ass weed addicted friends since they know I don’t smoke, they actually don’t call me anymore.  I’m still cool with everybody, I don’t preach, hell I know what it’s like but they all seen what I did and always ask me how I did it etc.  I just decided one day that I had to change my lifestyle that’s all it was.  I work out everyday in my local gym, and my relationship with my folks is soo much better now.  This is gonna sound weird but they actually respect me as an adult now, I didn’t realise before that even though I was entering my thirties I was still a kid and that’s why they treated me like one.  Weed isn’t a bad thing, it’s just how it effects you that you gotta question, if you do get your shit done – lucky you… and you’re like the unfortunately most of us,then it’s time to start thinking about stuff.

Mr. HOWIQUITWEED best of luck to you, and thank you…. for everything.

PEACE

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